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Looking back at this kind of thinking and our resultant behavior, we see now that we were really
letting circumstances outside ourselves control much of our lives.
When we first stop drinking, a lot of those circumstances recede to their proper places in our minds.
At the personal level, many of them really clear up as soon as we start staying sober, and we begin
to see what we may be able to do about the others some day. Meanwhile, our life is much, much
better sober, no matter what else may be going on.
But then, after a sober while, for some of us there comes a time when plop! a new discovery
slaps us in the face. That same old "iffy" thinking habit of our tippling days has, without our seeing
it, attached itself to not drinking. Unconsciously, we have placed conditions on our sobriety. We
have begun to think sobriety is just fine if everything goes well, or if nothing goes askew.
In effect, we are ignoring the biochemical, unchangeable nature of our ailment Alcoholism respects
no ifs. It does not go away, not for a week, for a day, or even for an hour, leaving us nonalcoholic
and able to drink again on some special occasion or for some extraordinary reason not even if it is
a once-in-a-lifetime celebration, or if a big sorrow hits us, or if it rains in Spain or the stars fall on
Alabama. Alcoholism is for us unconditional, with no dispensations available at any price.
It may take a little while to get that knowledge into the marrow of our bones. And we sometimes do
not recognize the conditions we have unconsciously attached to our recovery until something goes
wrong through no fault of ours. Then whammy! there it is. We had not counted on this
happening.
The thought of a drink is natural in the face of a shocking disappointment. If we don't get the raise,
promotion, or job we counted on, or if our love life goes awry, or if somebody mistreats us, then we
can see that maybe all along we have been banking on circumstances to help us want to stay sober.
Somewhere, buried in a hidden convolution of our gray matter, we had a tiny reservation a
condition on our sobriety. And it was just waiting to pounce. We were going along thinking, "Yep,
sobriety is great, and I intend to keep at it." We didn't even hear the whispered reservation: "That is,
if everything goes my way."
Those ifs we cannot afford. We have to stay sober no matter how life treats us, no matter whether
nonalcoholics appreciate our sobriety or not. We have to keep our sobriety independent of
everything else, not entangled with any people, and not hedged in by any possible cop-outs or
conditions.
Over and over, we have found we cannot stay sober long just for the sake of wife, husband, children,
lover, parents, other relative, or friend, nor for the sake of a job, nor to please a boss (or doctor or
judge or creditor) not for anyone other than ourselves.
Tying up our sobriety to any person (even another recovered alcoholic) or to any circumstance is
foolish and dangerous. When we think, "111 stay sober if * or "I won't drink because of " (fill in
any circumstance other than our own desire to be well, for health's own sake), we unwittingly set
ourselves up to drink when the condition or person or circumstance changes. And any of these may
change at any moment. [* Some of us AA's refer to ourselves as "drunks," no matter how long we have been sober.
Others prefer "alcoholics." There are good reasons for both terms. "Drunks" is lighthearted, tends to keep the ego
down to size, and reminds us of our proneness to drinking. "Alcoholics" is equally honest, but more dignified and more
in keeping with the now widely accepted idea that alcoholism is a perfectly respectable illness, not Just willful self-
indulgence.]
Independent, unaffiliated with anything else, our sobriety can grow strong enough to enable us to
cope with anything and everybody. And, as you'll see, we start liking that feeling, too.
26 Being wary of drinking occasions
We have worked out many ways of handling occasions when other people are drinking, so that we
may enjoy these occasions without drinking.
Back on page 21, we talked about whether to keep liquor or other alcoholic beverages in the house
when we decide to stop drinking. In that discussion, we acknowledged that we live in a society
where most people drink, and we cannot realistically expect that fact to change. Throughout the rest
of our lives, there will be drinking occasions. Chances are, every day we will see people drinking,
see drinking places, see and hear dozens of advertisements urging us to drink.
We cannot insulate ourselves against all such suggestions, and it is futile to bemoan that fact. Nor do
we have any need or wish to deprive other people of drinking. We have also found that we do not
have to forgo the pleasure of being with companions who drink. Although it makes sense to spend
more time with nondrinkers than with drinkers when we first start staying sober, we have no wish to
withdraw from the world forever just because so many people drink. Those who cannot eat fish or
nuts or pork or strawberries don't crawl into caves. Why should we?
Do we go into bars, or into restaurants or clubs where liquor is served?
Yes after a few weeks or months, when we have a legitimate reason to be there. If we have time to
kill while waiting for friends, we do not choose to spend it perched on a barstool, swilling a cola.
But if a business or social event occurs in such a place, we attend and participate in all but the
drinking.
For the first non-drinking months, it's probably a healthy idea to stay away from our old drinking
buddies and haunts, and to find reasonable excuses for skipping parties where drinking will be a
major entertainment. It seems especially important to stay away from such affairs if we feel nervous
about them.
But, sooner or later, there comes the time when a family or business obligation or a friendship
makes us feel compelled to go or perhaps we just want to go. We have developed a number of
ways to render such occasions easy for us to take, even though we abstain. Now, we are talking
primarily about the big cocktail party or the fairly large but informal dinner-with-drinks evening.
If the host or hostess is an old friend we can level with, sometimes it helps to tell him or her in
advance that we are not drinking right now. We do not ask for any special treatment, of course. But
it's reassuring to know there will be at least one person present who is completely sympathetic to our
efforts to get over a drinking problem. Sometimes, we can take with us a more experienced
nondrinker, or at least a companion who knows we are abstaining and realizes how important it is to
us.
It is also beneficial, before you go, to talk with another recovered alcoholic or with someone else on
your side, who is rooting for your health and fully understands the pressure you'll be under. Arrange
to call back later and tell how it went Another recovered alcoholic would appreciate such a call very
much. Believe us! We AA's get a thrill from every such message.
It is a very good idea to eat a sandwich or other snack before going to a party, even if you know
food will be served later. Something nourishing in the stomach, as we've already said, takes the edge
off many trying situations. (And you might carry along a small packet of your favorite mints or a
dietetic substitute.) This is even more important when you are headed for a party at which there are
likely to be some long heavy-drinking hours before food appears.
When you know that will be the schedule, you may prefer to skip the first hour or so of the drinking
and arrive only shortly before dinner is served. Many of us do this. Then, if there is going to be a [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]
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